I've done a lot of soul searching and here I am again. My life has been very busy and I can see by the results on the scale and how I have been feeling lately that I have not made taking care of myself a top priority. I have let everyone and everything take the "front burner" so to speak. So you know where that has put me.... sitting on the back burner feeling the heat! I have known for over a month now that I needed to take action again but I was ignoring it. Using excuses like...I am too busy at work, I will wait until the weather gets nice again....blah, blah, blah, blah! I am so good at making excuses! The long and short of it is that I went back to Weight Watchers last night and after two years of this and having at one point lost 43 pounds....I have gained back 33 pounds! Yup, I have packed it back on! My clothes don't fit.....my self-esteem has suffered... I don't feel energized....and I certainly don't feel sexy anymore. My problem is that I am an "all or nothing sort of gal". When I do something I do it 100% and I do a great job. If I "fall off the wagon", I have a very hard time getting back on. After I walked out of WW and got into my car, I burst into tears. I knew I had gained weight but the harsh reality of seeing it written down hit me hard. I knew by the way my clothes fit, or I should say didn't fit that I desperately needed to do something. I cried for quite awhile but somehow the tears gave me strength. I know I have to do this for myself...nobody else can do it for me. I will have to get back to my walking like I did the first time around. The weight came off quickly when I was dedicated to getting 10,000+ steps in EVERY SINGLE day. Most importantly however, I have to believe in myself again. I did it once before and I know I can do it again!


Thanks to all the people that have dropped me notes and offered encouragement. I was just in a place where I was tired of thinking about weight loss and I guess I was feeling sorry for myself. But again....thanks for the support...I appreciate it!!